the way it is these days
i feel tired all the time
most after a good nights sleep

donno where im going
or where ive been
but still i work hard
to be someone who i dont know

miss my friends from the past
moreso since they werent the best
these days i just
pick the ones i need

miss being in love..
or knowing what it is
something pure inside of me
dissolves everyday

times running fast
and too slow sometimes
but im never in step
never in line

listenin to a few good songs
thinking they talk abt me
and then hate em for that
for tying me to themselves

i wonder wats its like in bliss
or hows it is doing the right thing
over and over again
cos i struggle
even doing the wrong things wrong

i wonder if im lonely
or just part of everyone around me
but im pretty sure
there is no me
there is no me

As you wish..



Walk slow!
Or run fast..
Don wanna run?
So rot If you wish to..


Feel sad!
Or happy..
Nothing makes you happy?
So feel numb If you wish to..


Choose death!
Or live..
Too lame for that?
So hold the pain if you wish to..


Destroy!
Or create..
Too lazy?
So consume if you wish to..


Break friends!
Or make new..
Been hurt too many times?
Be alone if you wish to..


Be promiscuous!
Or find a soul mate..
Don’t have no love?
So be a whore if you wish to..


Take it hard on yourself!
Or ease off..
Don’t want to be an extremist?
So be a Libran if you wish to..


Go deep!
Or rise higher..
Waste of energy?
So float if you wish to..


Be betrayed!
Or trust..
Be a fool?
Give another chance if you wish to..


Manipulate!
Or be sincere..
Wanna have some fun?
Do both if you wish to..


Appreciate!
Or scream..
Not satisfied?
So shut up if you wish to..


Be nasty!
Or nice..
Can’t be nice?
So fake it if you wish to..


Have faith in yourself!
Or in him..
Can't do any of that?
So be a Woman if you wish to..


Give up!
Or fight on..
Don’t give a fuck?
So don't live, just breathe onnnn.. if you wish to..



Every single nano second of your present is as per your what you have wished in the past..
Every single nano second of your future will be as per what you wish right now..


And I'm afraid.. and I don't want to wish no more!!!

Kingdom Phoenix

Finally I know it
I know where I wanna go ..
It wasn't easy gettin started..
But now I am worthy too

Kingdom Phoenix is the place to go
Don't know the way
Gotta walk every day
Till I fall away..

The fall is what I wait for
That is my destiny
But that would mean the end..
So only half of it

I see the people around me
And I look at the age of being
Every one's got just one way to go
Higher higher.. and through the ceiling ..

I don't like the Sky
And it ain't the limit
All the fun's beneath..
Where the shadows are alive

Some real good souls here
Prey to the devil inside
It's half the creation of God
With overdue attention and lack of pride

There's no rush in reverse traffic
I intend to walk the mile
See the underworld with a prism upside down
Touch Bottom rock while my Devil smile

And when the house is burned out
Consumed with flames of anger and pain
And when the ashes of sorrow fly with fire worms
The Phoenix shall rise ... the devil vain

So pure, so true and with no fear
It will rise higher than the seven skies
Towards the end of darkness..
To a place called light.